Technically Dreamy

I haven't been updating my blog for a while now. Saturday, just celebrated ITB Silver Jubilee Dinner (Let's reconnect...) and it was tremendously amazing. Today supposed to be on a date with a friend but I kind of blew it off to assist my granny go to the clinic.

While at it.. I seriously can't find my center. I kept seeing his face everywhere and it troubles me. I really need to keep myself busy just not to think about him or else people might think I've lost it which I am. I kept looping the OST of different Korean Drama and I just realize all of them are love songs. Just for the sake, I'll track it down here...

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Page One (Part 1) by SG Wannabe & Ok Ju-hyun

Coffee House OST
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어쩌죠 그대가 또 생각이 나요
What do I do, I think of you again
내 심장이 한 사람만 원해요
My heart wants only one person
어쩌죠 사랑이 난 겁이나는데
What do I do, I'm afraid of love
마주보면 난 또 웃게돼
but when our eyes meet, I smile again

나를 설레게 하는 사람
The person who makes me a-flutter
숨겨왔던 내맘
My heart I've been hiding
들켜버린 것 같아
I think I've been caught


사랑해요 사랑해줘요
I love you, please love me
단 하루도 그대없인 안돼요
I can't do without you even one day
그대에게 첫사랑 난 아니라 해도
Even if I'm not the first love for you
나는 너무 행복해
I'm too happy still

보이나요 나의 사랑이
Can you see, my love
들리나요 심장이 뛰는 소리를
Can you hear, the heart beating
어쩌면 그 전부터 시작된 사랑도
It could be, the love started before
그대 일지 몰라
it might have been you


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나를 꿈꾸게 하는 사람
The person who makes me dream
내게 남은 사랑
The love left to me
모두 다 주고 싶어
I want to give it all

사랑해요 사랑해줘요
I love you, please love me
단 하루도 그대없인 안돼요
I can't do without you even one day
그대에게 첫사랑 난 아니라 해도
Even if I'm not the first love for you
나는 너무 행복해
I'm too happy still

보이나요 나의 사랑이
Can you see, my love
들리나요 심장이 뛰는 소리를
Can you hear, the heart beating
어쩌면 그 전부터 시작된 사랑도
It could be, the love started before
그대 일지 몰라
it might have been you

나 아파도 기다릴게요
I'll wait even if it hurts
언제라도 그 어떤 모습이라도
Whenever, however you look,
내겐 멋질테니까 그댈 볼 수 있다면
it'll look handsome to me so if I can see you
그걸로 난 충분해
I'm satisfied with that

보이나요 나의 사랑이
Can you see, my love
들리나요 심장이 뛰는 소리를
Can you hear, the heart beating
그댄 나의 첫사랑 내 마지막 사랑
You're my first love my last love
날 사랑해줘요
Please love me

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Hiatus

I know I haven't been updating this blog for so long. =) I was busy.. actually STILL AM~

Currently, doing some new layout for my website and maybe to update this blog layout (While busy with other stuff too.. Which is too important to share publicly). So, I will be back soon.

xoxo

Missing You...

Long time no update myself with my Idol k-grup & k-band. Seriously I'm missing them.

It's almost Yun's and Minnie's birthday now. We have prepared Jun, Joongie and Yun's present. Left with minnie's. I hope Taki had prepared something 4 him. Hear that Taki-ssi!! F nada, I'll take minnie away! Mwahaha~! Anyhow, better prepare 4 the Birthday message book for Joongie & Yun. I kept forgetting to announce the project. What a staff I am!



Speaking of Birthday, I will update my February friends' birthday. Will hang it up 2mrw!

I seriously can't wait for Seung Hyun's debut. I've lots of questions to answer. I know the question people would likely to ask is "Will Seung Hyun be able to fill Won Bin's shoe?" or "Can Seung Hyun REPLACE Won Bin?". Obviously, the answer is NO. Won Bin and Seung Hyun is two totally different people. Even if Seung Hyun is good, he will never be Won Bin and neither will him to SH. I think I'm still strong to accept that binnie has left. But still, it's not wrong to wonder. Will they be able to get on board with their new life? Will Hong Gi get his smile back after a lot of crying? Hopfully the primadonnas won't start comparing them both. We'll see how things go.



Oh oh! Today Sir Idham talked about designs and stuff for introduction on "Dreamweaver". Amazingly, I'm so very much interested in it. Guess I do like design by heart. I know I did pretty badly on Access, hope I won't in DW.



I AM TOTALLY MISSING MY FRIENDS!!! How is Linji&Lawi?FS? De'Lawa? Lt-11'ians? T.T i havn't spend time with them ever since 4ever!! How have you been doing? Aku miss kamuuuuu~
Btw, congratz to my kawans yg pass a'lvl and yg lain sorry ah. Keep tryin. Don't give up!



Last but not least... Stephy!! It's almost 3 months now! What is the status of the stuff?! Just a few seconds will do to tell that now would it?

Oh Won Bin >>> Song Seung Hyun

Members exchange..... Good? Bad? We'll see...

In my FT Island's Lair, I've posted the Leaving of Won Bin and Coming of Seung Hyun and to be fair, I as a Primadonnas will try to accept this. We might as well give Seung Hyun a chance to show what he got right?

So, Goodbye Won Bin. I hope you have a great life in your new solo like they said and I want to wish you luck. You will always be in our hearts as FT Island's sub-vocal and guitarist. Love you always!

Welcome Seung Hyun!! You're as tall as Joongie oppa!! Looking forward to your performance! Always be rooting for you and the rest of the FT Island!!! Hong Gi aaaaaaahhh!!!! XDDD *biased mode turned on*

Binnieeee..... WHY?!!!

I'm so effin' SAD right now!! I was having my lunch around 12++ and BAM! a text message came from my friend, Aimi telling the shocking news... I believe the exact message was...:

Yui!!

Won Bin has LEFT FT Island for REAL!!

OMG!! I'm soo sad!! I feel like crying now!!!

What do you think my reaction at that particular time?!! OF COURSE SHOCK!!! My mood break down right after!! WHYYYY??!!! I want to know the real reason binnie ssi!!! I don't want to believe it..... and I take it as a rumor... but N000000000..... I Searched to every web that linked to K-pops, and it turned out TRUE.... PAINFULLY TRUE!!!

Want to know the full story? Visit here

COME BACK binnie ssi.............='(

Back From Hiatus^^

I'm back from my looooong silly holiday^^ Why I say its my holiday is because everything is silly for me. Jokiessss~ anyhow, my holiday was superv especially my first trip to KL!! and now I'm back.

I'll update on the KL part when I have the photos with me.

Today was my first day for semester 2, Year 1 in ITB. So far so good. No comment yet, but LOTS of people have a new haircut!! ^^ We watched a bit of video by Miss Wida and BAM! LAWAAA~!! XDD I think I'll have a copy of that later~ Then lunch at Giant with Mami and Farah~

At home, we go Qilah's.... *ahem* i mean MIQY's house and play Wiiiiiiii~ XDD but nda batah la.. Zimah eventually called Qilah to talk about problems. Well, me and my small sis have something to do with it as well so we talked it over and everything turned out good... FINALLY!!! Honestly i miss us hanging like we used to^^

okayyyy time to study^^

Cassiopeia-family.com

Yeah.... Cassiopeia-family.com!

The largest and the most free-to-play forum ever for me. I've joined the forum for quite a long time now. The first time I joined in was the day I first fell devoted to TVXQ but I don't know how to work with forum at that particular time. Look at me now, I'm a Graphic Designer and a Warning Team in that particular forum!

I've met A LOT of new friends in that forum too. Somewhat I call my another home. Where we play in the chatbox, and there I was called the "Marshie gurl"by a lot of people there - Aizaaa, Rochiee, Tya, Catz, Hermie, Liz, Hikii, Hoshie, Emerliena, unnie RJ, apple, lots2 neh. Life keeps getting in the way again. Seperating each and every of us... =(

Just wish everyone of us could still in contact with each other.

Message: MISH YOU ALL!!!!

3 more days till my flight

Seriously... 3 more days!!! I haven't prepared my stuff yet!! What worse is that I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO BRING!!! My god!! I am an idiot!! XDDD

Okay... wat to do now.. I'm all stressed up...

Firstly, my small sis went back to asrama already. Thinking of her going there again makes me miss her more. I mean all I can think right now is just hoping that the holiday she was having to be LONGERRRR~~ I know it was selfish of me but.. Its what im thinking right nw. I just miss having fun with her around.

2ndly, I just got off on9 phone with my brother. I really miss him and he seems fine there. Well, that's good right?? Gambatte ne!! Gud luck sna bro!!

3rdly, I really2 feel annoyed right now by a certain person. Don't wanna point finger and all. Just hope he/she could just stop irritating me!! Getting on my nervesssss... SERIOUSLY!!

and 4thly, Imma gonna go on afternoon date with my two best friends tomorrow... or laterrrr!! Yay!!! I really2 miss them. We never get to hang out like we used to nw.

That's all I think... Oh yes, will add up a birthday post next!!

New Year 2009!

It's a brand new year, the year 2009! I may be late to say this but... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I decided to bring in my new skin. New looks!! and I named it "Dyecasablanca's Lair" and I changed to a new link as well "http://dyecasablanca.blogspot.com" so its a bit easier that way since the link is the same as my email^^

Enough about the new stuff. Let me start with whatever happened in the entrance of 2009... For starter, there are a lot, I repeat-A LOT of wedding invitations to attend this holiday and it doesn't seem like a holiday to me at all. 

2ndly, I'm going to go KL this 7th January. I'll be going there for the whole 9 days perhaps. Spending time with the DYC gangs. Hoping for the best to happen^^

3rdly, I'm sooo damn stressed now. My idol, Hong Gi was in hospital the last few days. He was quite sick in his last performance. Damn! Never thought that the anti-fans could say he's not professional enough!!! For god sakes, he's been doing an unbeliveable non-stop performance for three whole days and he's the main vocal... HOW COULD THEY SAY THAT?!!! erkh... never the less, I still love you my dorky guy!!

4thly,  I'm tired.... NEED TO SLEEP!!! XDDD I'll be updating the birthday post 2mrw~! 

Tears on my pillow

Right!! That's how i feel now...

I want to have a comfy sleep. A calm, peaceful rest. but... NOOOO!!!!! Tears keeps on pouring out... I'm all confused now. Don't ask me why. I can't even answer that.

Because of that thing that happened during that time!! Yesh that time!! *sigh*

Yunho "O" style Plush Doll

The Yunho "O" style plush doll.

That's right!! The Yunho doll that I've been waiting for is FINALLY mine!!!!!!! XDDD I love the description for the doll that unnie first introduce to me~ She said...

"Yunho has one, Jaejoong has one as well (his one is with his face on). Yunho said his dolly is cuter than Jaejoong's. Jaejoong used his doll to scare Yoochun because he thought Jaejoong's doll is creepy"

Wahhhh!! and i named him Yunho Jr~!!

Fs#4 Note....

I was studying my maths P4 just now and i saw the yellow + maroon book. I took the book out from the bookcase and smile fondly. I flipped through the pages and stopped to a page that mention something about love. It says:

4 oL' ppl who say "i luv u" wen u hav no clue wut luv is exactly!! Wut is luv? Wen we claim d8 itz luv d8 we hav 4 sumone, r we correct? Sumtin to ponder upon.....

• R ur palms sweaty, is ur heart racin' and iz ur voice caught within ur chest? It isn't luv, itz like!

• U can't keep ur eyes o hands of 'em, m i ryt? It isn't luv, its lust!

• R u proud, n eager to show them off? It isn't luv, its luck!

• Do ya want 'em bcz u noe they'r there? It isn't luv, its loneliness!

• R u there bcz its wut evryone wants? it isn't luv, its loyalty!

• R u there bcz they kiz u o held ur hand? It isn't luv, its low confidence!

• Do ya stay 4 their confessions of luv, bcz u don want 2 hurt 'em? It isn't luv, its pity!

• Do ya belong 2 'em bcuz their sight makes ur heart skip a beat? It isn't luv, its Infatuation!

• Do ya pardon their faultz bcz u care bout 'em? It isn't luv, its friendship!

• Do ya tell 'em dat everyday they'r the only one u think of? It isn't luv, its a lie!

• R u willing to giv 'ol of ur fav things to 'em 4 their sake? It isn't luv, its charity!

See... some things are misunderstood.. What is the true meaning of luv??

Stupidas!!! so menyasal to look over the old stuff eh!! Now i miss my friends even more!!!!!
Especially my FS', my BFF, my elevians and all my De'Lawas!! missing you all damn much!!! Now i cant even chat freely with my CF!!! so missing everyone!

But at least i get to meet bay in school yesterday!!! still not enuf dearie... so want to meet all of u agen and hangout!!

How I wish I could swear like I used to...

Yeah!!
that's what I feel right now!!
I sooo want to tell off that *beep* and that *beep*beep*!!!!
They don't know the real story, yet blasted off like that!
U think I din't say anything??!! I did!!!
Do u think they listen??? SOOOOO like you did!! IGNORE!!!!

Yeah!! that's what MOST ppl do, they IGNORE!!!
can't get it enough?? i spell it out for you!!
I-G-N-O-R-E!!!!!!!!!!
Nah!!!

*tick*
*tock*

okay... 7 mins up... i stop now^^

*sigh* i wish i could say that to their face... especially *beep**beep*
But I'm just not like that... That's not me...
DOnt make me someone that's not I am...

U know who u r...
^^ take care... WTF?!! xD

DRIVE

DRIVE is a word that really meant a lot to me. It was the word used by our very own CG. DINA to Linji when her performance in study dropped. The very word that helped me in my study. The very word that taught me to be more confident.

It was actually a group study that consists of 9 different people for 9 different subject. I remembered it well cuz i was the leader for my fav *cough* subject.. *cough* MATHS~!! xD

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Hey....

Today, just when i just woke up... My mobile phone was there beside me... I took a peek at it and my BEST FRIEND texted me...

Then i visited her page... this is what she write...

Do you remember when we had our little group? our DRIVE? It was just like yesterday.

We were all lost - we thought there weren’t any more hope for us to achieve credits in our papers - so we formed our little group, the DRIVE. We made our little icons, we drew them onto our papers, we made our own notes, we always have a leader to carry out the group discussion each day, we had fun.

Our group meeting was always held after school, after lunch. We would sit together and chat a little before getting all serious in the next hour. It was Monday: Lin Ji (Biology), Halawi (Georgraphy), then Tuesday: Iskandar(History), Dati(Math)..it goes on - the leaders of the day. haha. Our group meetings went on for months!

Not very long later, our group got bigger. From a five to a nine, slowly almost the whole class wanted to join. We shared our notes, we debated, we discussed, we joked, we chilled, we were almost like a family. And Lim, if you are reading this - just so you know, condoms were and still would not be a nice topic to talk about during our breaks. haha. CHASING AROUND THE CLASSROOMS IS A NO-NO TOO!! hahaha… -.-

It’s sad to see all of you have gone, that we no longer are in a group. When I was asked to help in teaching the juniors now, I couldn’t help but to think of this little group of ours. The way I teach, the way I explain, only got better because of our little group.

Right, dati? hehehe.

Oh and to lawi and dati, good luck in helping them!! Sorry I couldn’t join! I bet it’s a blast teaching the younger ones again. Klau aku disana bah, indatah kitani mengajar - kan mati.. we would joke sampai ntah bila! haha

To Iskandar: Dar, you need to tell me one day when you are freeeee!!!

To Pei Lei: I shall see you soon!! haha.

='(

Jiiiii!!!!!!! so wanna cry right now!!!
I remembered every little thing that happened... Even the time when we discussed about condoms... which was stupiiiiiid~ xD

Drive.... such great memories.... The time when we actually struggle our ass off just for O'Level... which was worth it ^^

Farewell forever~

Hey~~

I've been busy nowadays and didn't get the chance to update my blog... Well, a lot had happened actually... I wanted to post it up so that i would not forget abt the tragedy that happened in our family...

*take a deep breath*

Saturday, 4th August 2007... Was the most painful day i have ever encounter so far... The early morning during my first period, Geography, everything went perfectly well... The bell went off and i was sitting in my Physics class when my father texted me saying.....

"Dapat keluar, nini amit meninggal....."

Only god knows what i feel at that very moment... I was stoned and terrified to my very soul... All that come up in my mind was my granduncle whom i last saw lying on a hospital bed, with plasters and bandages and needles all over his skin... Although he was in that very condition, he still like to "nyaya" his grandkids... Suddenly, tears came out from my eyes and my body still petrified... As soon as my current sir, Mr Ang read the text message, he let me leave the class to get home...

My family and i went straight to the funeral...

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Addition. Life began to scare me. I surf in through the Internet and i linked through Linji's page and the first thing I saw is that she had lost her beloved grandfather. I'm sorry for your loss sweetie~

Up till now, i have heard more than 10 people died this month. And what worst, some are too young to die. Some are because of their own fault. Drunk during driving. *sighs*

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Maltesers - ...no ordinary chocolate! Family!

Seems like it's fate that brought Maltesers to us. What is this?? How are people going to understand what's going on?? Let me take you back to what really happen....:

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*One month ago - May*

It was about a month ago, I was sick. Well not really sick, just not feeling well... (...What's the difference?..). Anyways, the thing that scares me for over three years happened again, My serious nosebleed. I have this sickness ever since i was little. While I was having lessons in my GP class, it started bleeding. I barely recall what really happened back then but right after my nose bleed, everything went blur. When my vision returned clear, i was on a couch with my nose covered and what worst is they called an ambulance over to pick me up. I was given 3 days Medical Certificate in order for me to rest.

What is this?? (Focus Dye...!) What i really wanna tell is what happened while i was gone. When i came back to college, I found out that my GP mates distribute among themselves this "Kit Kat" chocolate and come up with "Kit Kat Family". It consist of a Weird Gramp, Slumber Daddy, Childish Mummy, 5 crazy daughters and a new born silent Baby . Wanna know the funny part is? I was the "Childish Mummy". *LOL*

Basically here are the members...:

Weird Gramps - Nazmi
Slumber Daddy - Bayak
Childish Mummy - Yui
Crazy Daughter 1 - Shikin
Crazy Daughter 2 - Syaza
Crazy Daughter 3 - Djah
Crazy Daughter 4 - Shamie
Crazy Daughter 5 - Qiesha
Silent Baby - Shidah

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*Now - June*

Another chocolate has been distributed to the family due to the birthday celebration of the "Weird" Gramp's. He gave away two types of chocolates; Maltesers and Hershey's. The Maltesers box has a "No ordinary chocolate!" sign on it. My sarcasm forced me to cross out the "chocolate" sign and replace it to "Family". Hence, the Maltesers family is formed.

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* Behind The Scenes *

There is another special tale going on the very same day Gramps brought the chocolate. I tell you what is it...:

The very morning, my father gave me an Almond's chocolate and coincidently, I've bought Cadbury Marble the day before. I ate a few of it and bring another box to school hoping to eat it with Neo(My sweet little baby boyfriend) and my friends. Then, early in the morning, my friend bring along M&M and give some to me. Then I have my P.S with my friends. To my surprise, my friend Lala brought along with her Ferroro Rouche (..Whatever the spelling is...) so we shared all the chocolates we have together with the others. After i have my P.S, I have my GP class and then again, Gramps brought another chocolate, in fact he brought two types; Hershey's and Maltesers. Lunch time, I ate the remaining chocolates with Neo. Quite a lot actually. I have maths class in the afternoon and my sweet friend Linda gave me a Panda biscuit with chocolate flavor on the inside.

I thought that was it. Then i hungered for more chocolate, My father drove his way to the 'De Rimba Department Store' and i bought a Cadbury Bytes and another from 'Wesmart'.

What a day~!

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Cast

Almond's Chocolate
Cadbury Marble
M&M
Ferrero Rouche
Hershey's
Panda
Cadbury Bytes

Special thanks to...:

Kit Kat

Message..:

Thanks for the fun month~! *ROTFL*

Lin Ji

*Gone to get another bucket as the first has been filled with LinJi's love*

*ROTFL*

I come across my favorite person, Lin Ji last night. We hadn't chat nor meet as we used to in the earlier times. We had a good chat last night. Well the funny thing is that I thought I gave her my blog page already but then She didn't remember me telling about it to her. Or is it me?? I' pretty sure it's me. I'm not much of a memory person. LOL~ Anyways, this is what I am in her point of view. This is what she wrote in her blog.

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Dati here is a lovely girl. She is my friend since we first met in SMMG. We barely talked until...wait.. we were talking ever since then but we got closer when we were in Form 4. I must say we share a lot of things in common. Let's not go there. >.> <.< >.> Let's say to the point it was SCARY. LoL... xD She is friendly, caring, all laughy too and ultimately loves to put friends first before her. So ladies and you fellas out there, this is Hidayati [i call her dati so yeah.. xD]

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Sweet, isn't she.... Just don't believe everything she said or texted about me. LoL~ I agree with her in the SHARE-A-LOT-OF-THINGS-IN-COMMON part. It is the most SCARY part in our life. I said 'MOST' scary part~ i mean it. She don't want to mention what it really means. hahahaha... Anyways, I would do the same thing to her.

Linji here is a gurl~ Duh! haha.. I was quite surprised when we first met we don't really communicate that close when we first came in Menglait. Honestly, i don't really remember when or how we became close friends somehow i just feel that it happened in a flash. The weird part is when we got to talking, most of the things that sparks her interest also caught mine. What i like, she likes it too~ vv. The best part in her is that she ALWAYS smiles. She hid her emotions and her temper perfectly. She's an intelligent girl. She's an honest person. Loving, caring and always-there type of girl. Eh eh talking about emotions, I NEVER see her cry. Really Ji.

Pretty kan?? hahahah
See how she smiles.









Never break her trust. You'll never regain it. You'll feel sorry to yourself for that.

*Smiles*

My Reward for Bad Day

Last night i thought that today will be the best day of my life. Well, it's not that i have something going on but sort of like a plan. But oh my god..! It turned out bad~ N i mean really really bad~ I overslept this morning and i have to rush myself ( i hate that when it happens ) and i slipped off in the bathroom cause my small sister left a soap at a middle of nowhere ( that really hurts i tell you). When i came down the stairs, there was nobody there well except for my mum who stays at home ( not working at the moment if you know what i mean ). My dad's already off sending my sisters to school. I thought i was left behind 'again' but luckily my dad had made a u-turn because he left something at home. I was thakful but not so thankful in my car ( my dad keeps bragging me abt being late and how it affects him... bla.. bla ). So i arrived at the college and i almost tripped off from the car ( well, it's a good thing there was nobody there orelse....... except for my sister ). Then on my way to my registration class, i actually got bumped on the stupid door at the geography's block ( well, who's to blame? These things happened ). Then everything went fine until it's lunch time. I was on my way to my gang's hangout spot ( a the back of the library ) and i bumped again to a wall ( how clumsy am i? ). Then we have this academy rewards thingy going on during the afternoon sessions. My mum was there cause my sister's one of them. i was carrying my bag and my files then my sister got me carry her laptop cause she's busy and all ( great, my sister got a certificate and i got a laptop. Well, at least i have a temporary present for the day i went through ). But ladies and gentleman, that's not my reward yet. I went home and my dad actually buy me an 'easi' card ( Cool huh?! ).

*p.s - after i receive the precious gift, i tripped off another stairs and bumped my head to my own bedroom door. Good gracious. I AM CLUMSY...!!

I missed my best friends...

It's been a very long time i've never talked to my best friend(LinJi)... i kind of missed her though... And halawi too... We've been like the trio fer a long long time already... but because of 'that' incident, our relations became further... further... further... I've known them for a very very long time and we were like bestfriends ever... i liked sharing everything with them... but now, all gone... nothing is left... i know, its harder for them to trust me again... and i believe it is entirely my fault...

Not only my friends are moving further away from me... the person i dont want to be near with is coming closer to me now... how am i supposed to do now? am i just stupid enough to believe that they will come back to me? Cauze that's what im doing now... i believe that halawi is not that type of person... i have faith in them both...